Alive scrolls

2008-04-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

yes ok its been ages since i last typed something here..

but damn i'm starting to feel it
starting to feel emo coz of going into NS real soon.
i'm not afraid of the suffering that may come,but rather the loss of touch wif the outside world.
ok yes i noe it wud not be that bad but until i'm in n thru it i guess this thot wil remain in head.

2008-01-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

woah..its been ages since i last blogged..but lets c...how many jobs have i applied for?
k-box ,Hk-cafe,aussino,sentosa and many more..its the first day at aussino n its tiring but at least the ppl are nicer...i noe i cant expect everybody to be nice n be patient wif a newcomer like me(noob) but i don regret leaving sentosa. Thx to sheena banana n kaiwen who "talked" me out off the job.

its nice not to have teachers breathing down our neck for homework n exams..but are we really better off now? everyone is like working working n working til it makes it difficult to organise an outing wif more than 10 ppl in it...but i guess at least then we'll treasure the times that we are able to meet. i really hope to meet up wif ALL of whoever i noes at least once more b4 i go for Ns(national slavery).

may graduation not pull us apart my friends..cheers=)

2007-12-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

with all the buzz abt glamour and fame...its better not to get into it..right?
confidence shd come from within and not instilled in by other people..right?
i shd juz off my com

2007-12-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

Everytime i want to blog, i always end up deleting wad i type.
ok mayb its time to change blog or mayb to simply not blog at all.

suffocated

2007-12-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

was having a short chat with dajie, and she said sth like : "i used to be emo too, but soon i realised that its a waste of time" what a pratical view she has. which i cant help but agree.
then again i detest those who ever mocks at ppl who they view as "emo"

its just a mordern term used to describe one's feelings of sadness. but some view it as a sign of weakness and tries to hide their insecurities by making fun of these ppl before they become a target themselves.

i'm tired.don come and go as u wish.
why do u have to be so calculative?

2007-12-12T14:46:00.000+08:00

mm..this week's mainly meeting up with people whom i seldom see throughout my 2 years in Jc.
wooo..din noe westlife has an album called "Back Home'. heard some of the songs on Youtube, and they really just make u feel all emo man haha...meeting sam,zach and alvin later! haha...singsingsingsing..outing wif dad was inspiring and refreshing=) brought me and my bro to Vivo and explore some parts of it that we never knew they exsisted. cant wait for mum to bring me go eat steak oso...

amin n kakwai went to police academy alr.wonder how they're doing in there. Just hope amin does'nt get beaten up in there.

losing something is one thing,
Forgetting what you lost is another

2007-12-02T09:59:00.000+08:00

Some say love it is a river

That drowns the tender reed.

Some say love it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger

An endless, aching need

I say love it is a flower,

And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's the dream afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying

That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long.

And you think that love is only

For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed that with the sun's love,

In the spring, becomes the rose.

-The Rose,Westlife

a beautiful song=) not really those wif a catchy tune but the lyrics are masterly crafted, almost as if like a poem ! haha..Is there really a perfect time to do something that we really wan?

2007-11-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

its been 3 years already ever since one fateful day. so many things have happened. sometimes it feels like things were meant to be set up so that it can be smashed down, but no.

through all these, i've been thru the sweetest and the darkest time of my life. Though times have changed, and i believed we have move on from the pit in our own ways, some things will always stay in my heart.

i'd just like to take this post on this day to say no matter what, i've never regret knowing you.

sorry for all the heartbreaks i've caused that must have left incurable scars in you.

and thankyou, for everything that you've given me that money cant buy.

2007-11-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

it seens centuaries seems i last blogged..simyee is right..
IT IS KINDA SCARY- no more wearin of MJ uniform(the buckle of my pants came off after the last time i washed it, wad an ending=( ),
no more rushing to school,
no more not-so-nice canteen food,
no more skipping out to eat at west plaza,
no more falling asleep durin lessons
no more Lt
no more bball life in Mj(its been long over though)
...many more...

looking back i (and i believe all those in jc) really sacrificed alot, in our own lil ways. it was madness, but now its over. 2 years has passed.
i'm really very happy to have made new friends in MJ, and sad for the ones i've lost.
as we move on in lfe, we'll prolly wun be able to hold on to ALL the friends who we tink are the best. we can only look at the (green light) and smile! haha
i do feel like gatsby sometimes though..

2007-10-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

DO we have 24 hours a day now? it seems like there's only 12! could'nt find a study partner so i decided to join amin n his frens today to study. It was not bad..wad i wanted..something to make me sit down n do work, even when i nid to pee. Just that amin as usual gets crappy. but it was fun n i found someone to have lion king marathon with.
perhaps if i really nothin to do next time i can do research on dreams. tink its really quite cool. could this be the start of something new?

2007-10-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

was surfing online, listening to music that i once adored so much.(i still do though)
BOYBANDS-they were once the hottest thing around. Unfortunately, like all modern music, they fade away. But not in my heart.
They've played a big part in me, especially in secondary school days. Singing with alvin,zach and sam and taking part in al the lil contest was funny n memorable-not that our singing's great but its something special. something that may never be unearthed again. Some people may not like boyband as they appear cheesy most of them do not compose their own music. i like the synchronization, even most of todays solo singers use their own voice to do the sync thing..backstreet boys, westlife, A1, N'sync, BLUE!

hey but that don't mean i ONLY like boybands! they are juz special special special..

2007-10-05T15:48:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like you don wana talk to anybody?
you get irritated easily and feel like a total waste of time when you're out with people. You gotta put up a smile most of the time and tink of jokes so everyone noes of ur presence?

i apologise that tis post sounds gloomy again, but hey, i don really noe wad to type when i'm happier.
'and we look forward to the things that would turn our frown upside down'

2007-09-22T14:34:00.000+08:00

There's not much good in the worst of us
and so many of the worst of us get the best of us
that the rest of us are'nt even worth talking about

2007-09-19T08:42:00.001+08:00

the whole of yesterday was a special one. i din hold my pen for 24 hours!
well, we are said to be the envy of many becoz we finish so much earlier.
but many din noe that came wif a price.

no one's gonna believe that i put in effort, esp for math.
i can imagine mdm koh asking me "ken, wad is this?wad were u doing the whole of study break n hols?" i'm just gonna try again. at least at the end of the day, i noe i did my best. though i noe others wil say its not hard enough..well, perhaps its really not enough..juz not study smart ba..oh well..

2007-09-10T16:41:00.000+08:00

end of only 1st paper of prelims...many more to go..and once i came home, slept for the same amount of time that i spent taking the paper. How pig can i be.

2007-09-06T19:43:00.000+08:00

i want to swim..i desire to swim..i NEED to swim!!
i shall go tml..even if it means alone..lol..
Recently i sleep alot n dream alot. *not the sick ones though
n i'm convinced i have a high metabolism rate.
and that aint really a good thing...

2007-08-27T19:03:00.000+08:00

i see that this blog has been stagnant for a long time..oh well...i guess not much has changed except its nearer to the Big A's ...class photo taking session was memorable=) rmb zukai said that the class sprit seemed to be back after disappearing for the longest time especially since we've been too busy attending classes, doing tutorials, catching up on sleep etc.
it was both amusing and embarassing watching the "cam-whores" doing wad they do best.
hope this sprit can be sustained...

2007-08-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

i see a recurring pattern..the unconscientious tongue-the killer

2007-08-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

my recent fav song-'wait for you' by Elliott Yamin. This guy has a way of hitting the high notes without sounding too forceful. awesome man.

but hey i chance upon this video. Apparently there was a Doctor Who series on tv which has been ard since forever. how come i never heard of it? its a science fiction kinda show and it seems nice, both the science and romance part..Mayb i can go ecplore it after the A's =)

Oh my i cant find my specs anywhere..has anyone seen it? i hope i've jus dropped it somewhere and some kind soul left it at the general office or something. if not i'm juz gonna b a blind mouse!

2007-07-21T01:57:00.000+08:00

They come into your life, they leave your life. Some leave footprints, others only hit-&-run. But u're never the same again.

2007-07-17T20:34:00.001+08:00

haha bro u mistaken la..i don mean to try to say that i'm lonely by blogging my previous entry.
just suddenly thot thatthat incident that happened is a classic example that humans are lonely in one way or another. And the baby girl expresses this point perfectly=)

friday gotta go back to remove 'lilo and stitch'......

2007-07-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

was sitting back one day and i remembered the day when i was out with my 4 year old niece.
My bro and i was playing pool so she had nothing much to do except waddle around. There was another girl whose dad was playing pool too. Both their eyes met and started playing with each other. I duno how but they just did.

When my niece was about to leave, the girl cried. At first, tears merely rolled down her cheeks, then she went to hug her dad, sobbing as she tries desperately to call out to her playmate to come back. she was lonely.

2007-07-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

quite sian..
sometimes i feel compelled to blog, for some unknown reason. Feeling very stale at this moment..
i now agree wif kor, if someone really wants to know me or hows my day, they should juz do it in a more 'old fashion' way ba. I don feel that safe wif public blogs anymore..i view my own blog everytime i come online, but decided not to do anything wif it. i guess its different already,

2007-07-03T09:26:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i came here.

"stay the same" is a nice song man, juz found it recently only even though its been around for like the longest time. Inspired by the song, i realise we have to learn love ourselves beofre we can extent this love to others, for otherwise at the end of the day, there will only be remants of your own empty heart. This kinda love is not healthy too..

2007-06-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

spent the last 2 - half days wif zach. on the 1st day we cant really find a nice tables, but on the second day we were lucky. went swimming wif him today too. like talking to that dude man..

oh ya, we saw this bird which 'seemed' to lie helplessly at the side of the road. it cud have gotten run over by some vehicle if it were driving too close to the curb. We wanted to lift in up wif our bare hands but knew it was dirty. so we used foolscap to try to nudge it to move away. BUt it stood up and walked towards the road!so we were like screaming to it to come back. then finally cannot tahan we were abt to 'spank' it to move, it flapped its wings and flew away....

we were like wondering y the bird in the first place so dumb wwant to sit there? to breathe in the CO2 and NO2? it din't noe it was in danger of becoming roti prata! no wonder they call em 'bird brain'!!

very happy yesterday. Its been 3 weeks since i last saw u.

2007-06-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

Finally after tinking abt it for so long, i finallly got my white watch=) though like quite "poser" but i tink its nice. Went to the national library with the purpose to study..BUT..

hey i did study though.just that there was no proper table and chair and i had to slouch most of the time. Ziqi n linfeng watched "Just Follow LAw" as i TRIED to study. gotta keep my head up ba.

Beauty is nature. Dont try too hard becoz all of us are beautiful just the way we are. WE are beautiful becoz we are not artificial. Tear off those masks.
Yet people are paranoid and insecure, we are vunerable when we expose ourselves too much.

2007-06-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to pull darren out to study..
Realised today that i'm actually quite air-con intolerant. mayb its coz i don have aircon at home ba. Nose was like a lose tap.

2007-06-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

am i not worthy of ur respect? is it i'm shorter, or not as handsome n popular as u?
Is T.T really all u noe? mayb i'm juz sensitive, but hey, look at our results..Dont u tink WE play a part in it?

Hope--In the Great Gatsby, is that tiny strip of light, that shines in our world of darkness. N he wud do anything..to protect that whatever is left, that glimpse of hope.

2007-06-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

Its not easy everyday
With you by my side i will fight and defend.

2007-06-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

Went to Batam wif family during the weekend=), not bad, tried 'go-carting'
The dream i had last night was scary.Yet it seemed real.
3 Weeks from now on the mid-years, why am i still so slack?
I still owe darren his clothes!
I tink i no stamina alr.

2007-05-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

Someone shot the ball, but it missed, everyone's boxing out, but you din't, the rebound just came to you...
should i or should i not?

who wants to go swimming? haha..de-stress for mid years la!

2007-05-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

Quotes from spiderman movies...

"With great power, comes great responsibility"

"To do wad is right, we have to be steady, sometimes even sacrificing our dreams"

" No matter wad situation we're in, we always have a choice to do wads right"

uh, bro is getting on my nerves. Actually he din do much. Its just that i'm too sensitive. He tinks he can be rude and then let things die over some time n i'll be the goody brother to him again.

Too bad lor, i've been too nice to be hurt by ppl, so pls don step on my toes.

aiz..i guess i'm just....very vexed lately. Little things iritate me. i'll be fine after today.=*

2007-05-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

all the best to weeyang on his match today+) jiayou fu dui zhang.
If u ever read this post juz wana say thanks for all the times that you hang out wif our class. We've always been treating you as part of our class.

argh..i muz really set my heart out to re write my lit essay. It seems like the toughest job now.
Thx amin for going with me together to sch every morning to hit the 7.15 time. If not i wun smile every morning dude. Hope you'll slp earlier every nite coz u pratically have no energy for lessons every day!

-no... don..pls don..

2007-05-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

wad should be the definition of a friend?

someone who will stand by you even though he/she knows the decision(s) you make is not wise.
and not threaten to abandon you if you make the wrong decision.

2007-05-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

mm...wad happened? wad happened?

2007-05-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

been's some time since i last blog.
Filled with relexation and a lil pessimism, the competition for us has juz ended today. I have no complains-juz like wad my coach say, juz take it as an experience. Wads most important is that we enjoy the game as a team and improve.
Went to marina square wif darren n amin to shop for audrey's gift aft that.. hhaa, it was fun hanging out wif my class guys wan la. we wanted to have mac ice-cream but their machine was spoiled,..quite suay..haha
then i went to meet u=) noe we've been wanting to meet each other but time has not been on our side. no. 10 !!

2007-04-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

guys, i may sound sad on the blog but i'm stil very much a crazy person! i think..haha..
but really wana be serious abt the reminder of cherishing ur loved ones ard u..

ok..i've finally bought a cheapo alarm clock, but i've got a huge pile of homework to catch up i guess.any suggestions to a simple night hang out wif family people? meridian bbal is out of the first round le. but i don care so much le, tink juz wana enjoy the remaininf 2 games.NJC n SAJ, here we come!

2007-04-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

n i tot i was supposed to be happy for the weekend when i finally get to talk to u happily.

little wud i have expected to feel so physically sick after that that i vomitted twice in the night n had such a bad diarroea. i could'nt slp all night. It was like my body was alerting me of a disaster. Then the call from my cousin at 4am shook my universe. And to think that we had just lost to Tj by so much that day. Negative things seem to strike me and my family time and time again. I guess the family will be even further apart now. My aunt had love me so much, yet i had done little to repay her love. Always only thought of her as a naggy aunt. i should have known that she was so stressed, despite being uneducated, she was a normal person with feelings and temper too. she was the one who really had the 'heart' to take care of my grandma all these time.

I will strive even harder for the remaining matches, for my studies, for my aunt, for my grandma.

Pls cherish your loved ones whom you may have neglected, especially when you know love them but just naggy. once gone, thats it.

2007-04-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

mm...the past friday was the happiest friday i've ever had in such a long time. But i hope it wun be juz a facade. Heard of eGen? well, i'm kinda exploring it now..sorta like a online community thing. wooah..my bro can really piss me off seh.i duno wad to post...
shugs..feel so lazy...

2007-03-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Turn of the tides...

i've fought, i've fallen.

N now i see everything.

The word that exsist in every romantic relationship was never mentioned.

Its too heavy on our shoulders.

xin ku ni le

2007-03-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

mm..its the 2nd day of term 2 already..in another months time i'm gonna face the greatest challenge in my time in bbal Its been tiring but yet exciting. But the again, i hope that time will not pass so fast as after that, its all about the books already.

i'm glad i din feel that sad today. coz i saw Blushed! i tink sometimes we really need someone or somethings or even some tots, even though they may b juz a illusion created by ourselves to numb off our pain.

haha..thankyou waiyin for the disc! appreciate the effort!

2007-03-24T19:40:00.000+08:00

a saturday is about is pass, a day where most families and friends alike wud gather.
went out wif my bro and linfeng to watch the new Mr bean movie=) i'm glad my bro enjoyed himself. later went to have dinner wif mel, jacob and angela at Organic cafe. nice=) company..not really the food..

In the present BGR world, love is no longer the most impt ingredient for a loving relationship.
The most impt ingredient is ________.
Without it, no one wud even consider being wif you. Y wud i wana be on a sampan when i can b on a firm and solid cruise?

but u noe wad? even the Titanic, the supposedly toughest ship, sank.

*crushed*

2007-03-23T09:11:00.000+08:00

Found a song "Love will keeo us alive"
This song's quite old so i guess amin wil rant abt how i'm an emo kid again haha..he himself is emo in a way too! haha..hope those who view it will like the video..

phey, in a way the March block tests are over le..though there's still the big A's..i guess my attention will be very much be on the other A thats coming up-A division...in a way the team has been formed aft all this while..no doubt we are not a champion team..but i wun juz give up like that...if not all the efforts put in by the guys will be down the drain..all the hours spent..the biggest regret wud b not to give in ur best!
oh..i UpSiZed my no. to 10 too=) though its done for someone..i hope that the new no. wil be a new path of pleasant surprises for me ba..i mean ..aft all this might be the last competition i'll b playing in le wad...

2007-03-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

Wooh....like at ziqi n linfeng..long time nv c them liao..i mean as a class la...juz one of the pics taken on ZH's cam during the gathering..tink i'm too lazy to blog..

tml still got paper for block tests....sianz...

u got 2 paper tml right? do jiayou k=) Appreciate ur msg..

10 is a nice alternaitve to the no. 6 rite?

2007-03-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

wa..so now even my bro clement oso found my blog..
thankyou bro for making the effort to call me=) honestly i duno wad i'll do wifout close frens beside me to encourage, to hang on to...
haha..dun likdat leh..i mean this blog to me is like one of my avenue to rant in a veri indirect way ma..so most of the times its gloomy and sad wan..but there are of course lighter and happy moments in my life la=)

went to samatha's place today for 4A gathering=) wooh...almost everybody was there n it was veri warming to c everybody there seh..Zheng hui n sam brought their partners...wooh..kinky la those two....i din regret going for the class gathering=)

2007-03-14T00:10:00.000+08:00

i tink i did something terribly yesterday. but when i was facing it, i dono y but there is juz this impulsion to rush myself over. i totally lost control. did i sorta give myself another chance to b stepped over? i guess i cant even think of the blush to perk me up alr...

i had a v strange dream last night.

i don wana blog abt it becoz its too absurb. but somehow i tink it was as if someone was watching over me. God yes, but it was something else... like a "personal fairy" and she was really pretty. n she could c thru my heart and pointed out my deepest fears and praised me. i dono how to describe. dreams are really hard to explain huh..

2007-03-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

Bounce...

wa..its the end of the 3 days of weekend le..Tml gonna b Gp paper..talked to kakwai n jiayi abit..
Kakwai mug so hard he stil say he feels kong(empty) inside! haha..i muz really pull up those socks man..

Went for a swim at clement's place then went to visit my cousin..the day was passed simply ba.
But tots of the past , as usual keep floating in and out of my mind as i hover ard TM. Well. i do hoped that the one tt made me ____ wud somehow appear! lol..

but sometimes when people nid to move on they juz nid a 'fake' goal to get their butts off the ground rite? i noe its impossible wan la..chill..juz wan tink of the blush!

" it takes for for a lie to work, one to initiate it, the other to believe it"

n i'm always the wan believing u

2007-03-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

bounce...

woohh...listening to "if your heart's not in it" by westlife now...its been a long time since i hear that song and memories of the past juz flowed back into me. i wan to sing this song..lol!! haha..it wud b nice to have a 'boyband' like in the past..its fun to have a group doing it together- i mean singing.

supper wif angela and simyee was a blast! haha..but it might b a long time b4 i can come out again ba..well things r only precious when we do that once in a while rite? n y is this so? y do we only appreciate when we lost some things?

2007-03-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

Bounce=)

today we played wif Ajc, we lost. but i tink its ok=) becoz i tot that at least nw the guys haf a roughh idea again how far we're lacking behind. ALso, we seem to haf gt a lil closer oso so i guess its a gd thing..Aj was a worthy opponent too..
got one play by me n hanqi was v nice! it was juz a simple give and go. but the pathetic me missed the lay up! oh well..look froward to more nice plays!!

!!! i blushed today! when i accidentally stared into someone's eyes! i hope it wasn't obvious though..do hope to juz SEE again..but i noe it wil juz stay that way so its ok=)

day by day, i seem to b able to care less and less for u..its u who make me wad i'm feeling today.
Day by day i c no reason to b unhappy over the impossible 2004
unappreciative, there is no point
no more love
But y does the heart still reach out like an infant reaching for its mother?
those eyes...aiz....haha...

2007-02-27T19:41:00.001+08:00

mm... all of a sudden, someone pointed out a truth that ive been trying to hide for some time-i've lost my confidence..
So many new ones have come in..its a gd thing in that e guys are really training like a team now. i c more and more hope for the team. but is it all gd wif all these new blood?the bond that i've tried so hard to bulit all these while, n now i look ard..its all new blood..
its not that they are no good, its just that it does not feel the same any longer..i muz get use to it asap..but alr i am experiencing my own fall..you cannot be a threat to me..wheres that confidence that i had?.i know its stil in me..but i need to release it quick..if not i may b juz washed away..so thats y still went to shoot some hoops today juz to get it back a lil..
time really does fly..in another few more mths, i'll come down le..cherish time=)

lyrics - fort minor

2007-02-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

Bounce...

Its been some time since i blog huh...
aiz. apparently this post may have to sound sad again.. becoz some of my mum's frens came over and 'revamp' the delicate house that i live in..nt trying to say my house v nice but its juz that i'm too used to it le..nw wif the sudden changes, i juz don feel so good.

man..i know the feeling of sianness in me now is not going to last but it keeps coming on going..i wan to keep it away for as long as i can..at least for a longer period of time.

Life is so ironic huh..what that u seek does not appear but what that u do not seek keeps appearing in font of u..the last thing i wana do is climb so high n realise that all is but a facade...it...juz wun change....

2007-02-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

mm..credit muz really go to my mum who prepared the reunion dinner all by herself ( i only helped at the end)

funny but the chinese new yr this year seems somewhat ordinary..but its the 1st day only so shd'nt judge too fast ba..

its the green-eyed monster that kills most relationships..i cannot let it control me..From Othello and Gatsby i shall learn..

Happy new year to all who is reading my blog=)

sushi oso handmade by mum

2007-02-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

2 more days to chinese new year

i guess i can take a break from studies and bbal for awhle, so that i can recuperate asap.
Was so glad i met prisila today! if not for her i would not have known how to pass my time seh..was so coincidental that she was waiting for her friend too.
well we did saw some mj ppl too, n i guess it wud b in their minds "what is he doing beside her?"
oh well but was glad pris din mind the glares and was understanding!

After reading zukai's blog, i have to agree that the angel and mortal game played throughout the school, organised by the councillors was really warming as we actually do get to get to know more people ard the sch..i wasn't a very gd mortal to my angel,Dazzelyn, nor a gd angel to my mortal chen shie. but oh well.

lets enjoy our CNY..=)

2007-02-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

mm....have been sick for more than a week le..i should be studying at this moment..but really feel so tired..today's Vday! din noe the valentine's in Mj is em...quite warm? i believe everyone received sth la! i mean at least i did! jk..

Seriously hope u like the gift i prepared coz its done outa the expense of sth i've nv sacrificed b4.

Would like to thank all those who have crossed my life n made an effort to wish me happy valentine's day=) Couples seems to be everywhere la..but oh well..

2007-02-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

Bounce..to the end of the tiring week..

some tried to comfort me by telling me i sounded "sexy" with my voice gone...argh..cant believe i lost my voice thru training...n to tink the last time i lost my voice was during orientaion 2006..
wooh! my bro got 13 pnts for his O's! congrats to him!! but oh well..i'm more concerned about his social life than his grades..he's a hardworking chap..

yay..i finally get to meet who i wana meet today..even though it was just a short lunch. n we saw this thin guy hugging his relatively "big" girl..haha..don mean to be mean..but it really looked funny when he started to "twirl" her horizontally....aiz..but oh well..they're in a world of their own ma.. its likdat when u're lovey-dovey....juz make sure u wun hit earth too hard when gas runs out..lol....

i shall rest tonite! DOWAN TOUCH HOMEWORK!!

BOUNCE.....

2007-02-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

bounce...ball bursts...

second disappointment comes near midnight..actually i shd'nt b too sad rite..shd nt expect anything in return..we're finally out of the rat race haven we? n who truly noes wads going on in my heart all this while? lucky still gt some v nice frens ard to make sure i don hit rock bottom..

she's so lucky

she's a star

but she cry cry cry in her lonely heart thinkin

if there's nothin missing in her life

then y do these tears come at night?

but i'll b fine=)as long as i get my butt moving

2007-02-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

Bounce.. to the race..

disappointingly, i did v bad for the road race..then the whole morning was like veri sian for me le
all i did was juz to sit there wif kw n look at wads going on..hearing ppl boast abt their positions, watching the hse com leading the cheers..i felt v withdrawn then..even when come the mass dance wen i shd b excited abt..i'm juz too heavy..

shd we believe wad ppl say abt wad other ppl?i don understan Y u trust ur fren so much..i'm v afriad i cant hold on..

i donwan u to overtake me..its the survival of the fittest..but then again i will guide u along..becoz at the end of the day..so wad if only i win? we'll stil lose..i wan to win..n yet i wan us to win..

2007-01-26T15:56:00.000+08:00

Bounce..to breakfast!!

wooh..presenting my class! dono when i can c jiayi n shinyu again so juz brought my cam to take some photos lor..it was realty nice seeing them again though..

The weeks been v tiring man..only averaging 6 hrs slp a day..but tink its the same for most of us who r in JCs too ba..sat n sun still gota work somemore..God pls give me the strength to carry on..hate the feeling of falling asleep in lectures la..then u like juz want the time to pass quickly likdat..oh well...

2007-01-24T10:25:00.000+08:00

ball's stationary...

in the com lab in school

inside me i'm screaming

i scream so loud u cant hear me

war hurts us both

wears us down

and sepearate it into two different worlds

2007-01-19T18:42:00.000+08:00

Bounce..to bday!

when is the time when u feel most loved? bday! if only everyday can b bday rite...jkjk..its only once in a year n thus ppl tend to cherish it like duno wad..well of course some bdays arn't that nice la..Wana say a rily BIG thankyou to al u guys n girls out there who make the effort to make my day an enjoyable wan!

some send me bday smses

some made me lil gifts that melted my heart

some gave me a warm handshake

some tried to flagpole me

some did a cheer for me

some bought me cakes

some gave me precious advice

some tagged on my blog

some wrote me friendster tesimonials

though the whole day was spent in sch, but it was rily fun..

been so tired these two days..only slept like 5.5 hrs a day n i'm like dozing off during lessons like no body's bussiness...went out wif clement n weijie today n they treated me to seoul garden..had alot of crappy fun play zhong ji mi ma..nw then i noe wad sadistic gamers they r!but at the end of the day..we were on board the train..clement was looking out for a seat in the crowded train n some ah-beng stared at him n said "don anyhow look hor boy" coz he tot clement was looking at his girlfriend..i told my bros i felt like giving em the middle finger.

then weijie told me in a way i nv tot he wud n told me to change my ways of vulgarities. was kinda surprised when he said that..but i finally understood wad he meant..

since i've promised him..i wil try my best to change..n i wil try my best to affect my team wif this lesson that i've learnt=) its not easy..but i'll try....

2007-01-14T18:47:00.000+08:00

Bounce...rainy sunday huh

dear God, rain all u want tonite but pls allow us to have our training tml...we need all the training we can get..aiz..y i do spend so much time but only can complete haf the tutorial ?tink i m nt focused enough..better faster go play..
then go back to thy books...

What happens when we drive too fast?

we run into car accidents

2007-01-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

Bounce...Judgement

i guess i led myself to temptation and jumped into the hole i've jumped in so many times. This world exist so many kinds of people. i mite nv get to learn how to live wif all of them. bu ti muz focus on the task at hand no matter the differences.

my insecurities, my folly..

2007-01-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

Bounce..to the weekend!!

phew...so like i din even haf time to use the come until the weekdays end la..well someone once told me that i haf to MAke time n not find it. lets c...wad r some of the major events of the week....

CCA recruitment! wooh..some 30 bbal enthu-istcame dwn to the MJ court n started jumping ard! was kinda scared at first la..but i was like tinkin..one yr ago i was juz like them! but i shd really count my blessings ba..coz i managed to enter sec bbal n mj bbbal is thru ppl's help wan..lucky han qi was there to help me...if nt i tink i mite lose my temper along the way lor..oh...but i really feel bad rejecting most of the j1s who din make it..

ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzz....tink i cannot make it liao..
where's my bed?

2007-01-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

cant bounce this time...

Expectations....

its like a presents, you give and u take..

From people or For people

we feel misery when things fall short of our expectations

so does this mean that we shd not set expectations?

Yet expectations are things that make the world go round

u expect your new day to be good, you expect your crush to look at you

subconsiously we also make expectations

that all explains our sian-ness

my expectation for you is to

...reply...

my butt is so heavy i cant budge...pull me up someone..

mm..can c that u r u veri happy now wif him=) i've nt seen the wrong person..

but..at the expense of our frenship? u wun even dare look at me now..

to tink we went thru things...mayb thats reality..

holy duck shall be wif me=)

2007-01-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

Bounce...

Whether i like it or not, the new year has began and so has school. But oh well..i can choose to be optimistic or pessimistic about it..Gone r the days where i can wake up late! The pace of life is gonna alot more faster..n i may be exhuasted in the long run. but i really wana excel in the A div and my studies. Mr khoo came to our sch yest to give an inspiring talk. Indeed i was insprired, i no long just wan to c the team make it to the second round. i want to aim for the championship. as much as i know the limits of our team. i wana hype up the team as much as i can for the team from now on..at least when WE lose, We gonna lose wif STYLE.

From strangers to good frens, from gd frens to strangers. The world goes round.

i wan to c u smile and say hi or bye to me everyday=)

2007-01-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

Bounce..to the new year..

tink the end of my hols are spent quietly ba..its good in a way..but aint it suppose to b a festive season? tink i shd stop sticking my head in the clouds..if the bird does'nt wana fly y force it?
stop getting kicked in the ass time n time again ba..so wad if u're in a tank all alone swimming? at least u have the whole tank all to yourself..new fishes will b added to the tank wan=) juz that dono how only..,.mayb one day fishes can hop then they'll hop into the tank u're in..

2006-12-31T16:59:00.000+08:00

Bounce..Last day of 2006..

well..i guess its time for al of us humanoids to tink over the passing year of 2006..
its was kinda like a roller coaster ride for me ba as its the j1 yr..got to know so many new frens..n of course there were many ups n downs..like the failure of being outstanding in the A div..come to tink back of Castor 2! haha, my OG grp n how this group sorta made me stay in Mj..(sabrina was in castor 2 oso..lol!!)

mm='( i don tink i can sing anymore le..just cant seem to find back that drive to perform..mayb its the spliting of the 4 of us ba..Alvin,sam n zach. or in fact i never cud sing..juz fooling myself ard by juz hiiting a few high notes.

mm..mayb i shd juz concentrate on my bbal ba..that time one of the bballers ask me wads the goal i have for the team..i said "break into the second round?"..he replied"its nice to dream"...all the more i noe i hafta train hard..cannot slack alr....i hope the guys understan my hinting here n there...

wil i ever receive a msg from u that expresses ur concern first? as much as busy as we may b..it takes feelings to make the first step..or perhaps ure relly wana pull me dwn

2006-12-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Bounce..the day has finally come..

for some reason angela seems to b pissed at sth..hope u'll feel better aft some time girl..
yea..today went out wif the bras..long time nv c them alr..its been fun crapping abt..
pls take care of ur health joel..n nice hair kor..haha=)

now i know u're not a fairy tale

and dreams were meant for sleeping

and wishes upon a star just don't come true

i thought u felt it too

when there was me and you

i understan=) if i had the chance i'll surely do the best i can

2006-12-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

Bounce...to christmas..

morning was a blowout man..totally hated it..but well the aftnoon was fun! was buying groceries wif my family as linfeng came over to spend the day wif my folks..we played PS, intro him to warcraft n watch Click..again..haha..

n yea..angela like had over 40 over sms X'mas greetings la! haha..n i had like less than 6 =(

n guess wad i did wif my man linfeng last nite..we went to had dinner aft my work n we suddenly wanted to drink some alchoholic drink
so we were like wondering how to go abt it as we;re stil kinda under the bar..but we heck la so juz tried our luck at Cheers n wala! we got the drink! haha..we were like so happy til we find tt we cant really open his bottle..aft like 15 min...we finally did it n were so high somehow..hahait was fun la..=)

i hope u had fun today=)

2006-12-24T11:24:00.000+08:00

Bouncey X'mas ...

mm..gonna go to work soon..so wana wish whoever who's reading this a Merry Christmas yea?

find that the holidays r really ending soon le, as much as i know i gotta start doing my freaking studies...really do wana spend more time wif my frens n family members..get scolded then get scolded la..

Is this the life that i really wana lead? y do i keep turning ppl dwn..y do i keep living in my shell..or is it still not the time for me? If this is so, then when is mine?
Juz like in the movie 'Click'==="its juz that wadever decision i make i always disappoint somebody" oh well..till next time..i tink it'l b another quiet x'mas for me this yr..well at least i hope it wud b better than the last=)

2006-12-23T13:08:00.000+08:00

Bouncey..lazy saturday..

LAst min my boss decided to b nice to me n gave me the day off haha..jkjk
so i can like slack at home for awhle ba..was V frustrated yest as i cant find me notebk which in it contain some impt info..N i had to postpone the outing which i had been tinkin abt for so long

i almost broke dwn into tears when i cant find it...then i went to work feeling like a train juz ran over me..
but after serving a few customers, n seeing a v cute baby wave to me to say byebye aft she ate the yogurt i serve her=) i felt that act wen u're feeling most dwn, the best thing u can do is to focus outward and make the people ard u happy. When u receive they're smiles n thx, u'll really feel much better.. i went home listening to music and found tt i act had the faith n patience to search for tt notebk.. n i found it at last!! Thank God..

2006-12-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

Bounce....dui(pissed)

wth la...this was'nt suppose to happen! y muz have wad winter new yr!!

2006-12-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

Bounce...Back from the 10 people chalet (or was it lesser?)

yea..the chalet was really quite sian coz u only c SOME of the people..but at least like i c

amin,weeyang,kakwai,zukai,xiwen,sabrina,hannah,mel..even jacob n angela

at first i tot the chalet wif/o serena wud b a disaster! but it was still ok la..we din really explore many stuffs but there were many laughters and it was fun cooking together wif those people..

Feeling quite sian at this moment, coz of some stuffs at home. Responsibilities that i've been assuming can really b over whelming sometimes. PLus angela is right, i really tink too much sometimes. But i guess as one gets older, all this shit that i'm going thru will surely make me a stronger person. Oh,...thx ah angela for the green shirt! i tink its really nice!

man..this monsoon rain can really get on my nerves..many trainings and friendly matches have been cancelled because of it alr..

yay..i cant wait til tml=)

2006-12-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

Bounce sleepily..

Wooh, Samantha n guijia came Yami yogurt yest n i treated them to a jumbo cup! It was nice seeing them together=) for some reason i was both excited and happy wen i saw the both of them..i guess its really nice to serve them since they r ur frens and u r glad that they have together for so long le..

going to meet linfeng later le..go c if gt anything to buy nt lor..well, therre was supposed to have training tis morning but there was a mistake somewhere and i sorta called everyone back at 7.30 wen training was at 8! so sori !

yest was angela's last day at Yami oso..i stil gt one more week!

wooh, some of the recent songs that i tink is v nice too!

Endless love-shen hua

chu dian-S.H.E

man..i realise i kinda like the ancient chivalry that exsist within the great warriors of the past, even though the recent movies kinda exagerrate it la..man, it was wooh!

U r my king's lady, i don even dare watch u dance

much less to b wif u

to tell or not to tell, i flip a coin...

2006-12-16T11:43:00.000+08:00

Yup, so here's like the MTV of the song=) Thx YouTube

..abt another hour more i'll havta leave hse to go for work le..

Is it true that i really confuse my feelings wif the truth? i long for an answer..

mm...Y din i dare play wif my juniors together wif my teamates? i guess i fear to b overshadowed. but i shd nt giv up any opportunity to improve myself. i guess i sorta subconsiously carry the burden alone. i cannot be so selfish, its nt healthy to myself n my teamates..

2006-12-14T15:32:00.000+08:00

fIt's funny when you find yourself Looking from the outsideI'm standing here
but all I wantIs to be over thereWhy did I let myself believeMiracles could
happenCause now I have to pretend That I don't really careI thought you were my
fairytaleA dream when I'm not sleepingA wish upon a starThats coming trueBut
everybody else could tellThat I confused my feelings with the truthWhen there
was me and youI swore I knew the melodyThat I heard you singingAnd when you
smiled You made me feelLike I could sing alongBut then you went and changed the
wordsNow my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be'sOnce upon a songNow I
know your not a fairytaleAnd dreams were meant for sleepingAnd wishes on a star
Just don't come trueCause now even I tell That I confused my feelings with the
truthCause I liked the viewWhen there was me and youI can't believe thatI could
be so blindIt's like you were floatingWhile I was fallingAnd I didn't mindCause
I liked the view
Thought you felt it tooWhen there was me and you
-a song that touched my heart recently...

2006-12-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

Bounce....normally...

today went out wif my 'mummy'. she was late! but it was ok la..managed to catch up abit but em, apparently her lips are quite sealed abt some stuffs..

to say or not to say? she leave it to me..but dere's low chance of a return. oh well, we went for a SPin n Win kinda lucky draw but i only got a notebook, then i saw that the other contestants like all got the same thing leh..mayb is cheat wan lor...but i gave her the prize, hope she liked it=)

Bouncey quotey :

Whatever that does'nt kill u
Will only make u stronger

2006-12-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Bounce..

but u nv came online...
i shd nt depend too much on love..mayb its nt even love..its juz dumb feelings
Bounce quote :

if wad i am is wad i have, then wad am i if wad i have is lost?

2006-12-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

Bounce...

well...i guess i feel better aft bathing n playing com wif my bro awhle..
well on the mrt..that was wad i felt..

" deres no smile on my face

i juz wana get home asap,to use the com or watch tv to spice up my emotions nw

n most of all hope to talk to u online

coz only talking online wif u wud seem less demanding, less awkward

i look forward to X'mas

becoz i look forward to ur response.."

2006-12-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

Bounce...ai...

Perhaps its juz my own wishful tinking

It was perhaps a nice dream indeed, but only to b remained as a dream

*speechless*

2006-12-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

Bounce tiredly but happily=)

have been off my bed since 7am! played against our seniors today, though we lost but it was great experience ba..i had my own mistakes(as usual) but i did pull off some nice jumpers n passes today!! tml is CJ take down!! (iya, we'll juz try our best la haha)

Then aft that went to Jurong to swim wif bro clement! the 2 of us walking ard made us look kinda gay but it was fun la..he was lik asking " y here no chio bu's wan.." talk cock sing song play majong..lol..n i managed to muster up enough courage to try to long blue n red slides!

as more n more j1s come in..though i hope for all of us who have been putting in al our effort will pull thru..but our progress juz seems to b too slow..jiayou teamates...

**SWEET**=)

2006-12-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

Bouncing tiredly...

Wooh...have been working 2days in a row n tml's the 3rd..so kinda tired ba...
its been an ok week i guess, wif al our trainings being friendly matches..erm...we've been trashed so far...but stil i'l keep the learning attitude...

yay...now gt ps1 n com to play..i hope my life wud get better..

pls get well soon=) i hope the dream i had wud come true..it was so nice i dread waking up man,...p.s its NOT a sick dream!

2006-12-04T17:33:00.000+08:00

Bouncey..bounce...

except for the "kite being tied dwn" issue, i guess the day has been fine ba..
played wif Loyang sec today n it was great..our screw's' improving..but it has to b by leaps n bounds for us to stand a chance=)

i tink i'm into HipHop!! ever since watching Step Up n U Got Served..i'm impressed man..or is it called breakdance? iya duno la..haha..guess that's where Amin gt his accent..haha..
perhaps our society is too conventional to except this kinda dance ba..coz its kinda tooooo attitude le..

haha..darren! when are u going to lend me crash benihood!? lol...my cousin act gave me her second hand PS1..but since its the hols so shall spend some time playing it ba haha....
n my 06A201!! miss u all...!!

.... Thx for the outing on Fri=) c u sometime soon ba..

2006-11-26T23:39:00.001+08:00

Bounce heavily..only..

i hate the way i tink..its most of the time negative...
y the wound juz cant seem to heal..
i noe we'l nv b the same again..but tts y i hate it....

y sometimes u can b so cold..but yet at other times u can be the opposite?
The roller-coaster ride does'nt seem to end...

2006-11-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

Bounce heavily..only..

i hate the way i tink..its most of the time negative...
y the wound juz cant seem to heal..
i noe we'l nv b the same again..but tts y i hate it....

y sometimes u can b so cold..but yet at other times u can be the opposite?
The roller-coaster ride does'nt seem to end...

2006-11-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

oh buy..wad am i doing here...
argh..juz wasting internet money...

2006-11-26T06:08:00.000+08:00

Bounce Lightly...

Wooh..finally reach genting aft 7 hr of bus ride..its like abt 6am now but the internet cafe is like crowded lik duno wad..lol...yest hanqi, naroth n me went to the 3Vs3..was kinda fun as we were lucky to meet 2 noob teams! but lost to one...so we cant even make it to the semi la=( but its ok coz overal it was stil a good experience...i did 2 pattern lay-ups! lol....

Hey u people out there!! don juz read my posts yea? talk to me by tagging or give comments oso can!!
p.s juz dn ask me change design of my blog coz i stil v noob at this..n kinda lazy...)

Bounce heavily...

i look ard everywhere i go..as if i knew u were nearby..but u dn seem so interested...

2006-11-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

Bounce lightly...

heyhey..today's kakwai's bday!! our youngest member of 06A201!! so hope he wud c this blog coz it it contains my greetings. man..like so long nv blog le..my com is apparently stil down..so ya..
haha..my bro juz did his application for the PAE thing..like gan chiong spider likdat, but can understan how he feel so la-last year oso likdat ma..he put MJ first choice! ops..i can c his grave next to mine...
iyo..so sori leh mr eric..feel so bad to make u stress for us..hate to hear those sterotype thinking that "sports ppl is lidat wan la" its not. but sometimes juz really..em...shen bu you ji **givin excuses**

Bounce heavily...

was actually so tired today..coz ya..had a quarel..she does'nt want2 solve it..she juz want it her way..honestly i duno how..i'm in a minefield

u are actually still the same..i'm glad i did nt fall off track..go n b busy wif ur busystuffs....i'm juz paranoid(or mayb i'm not)

mm...how will the outing b like? i'm looking forward to it=) i hope u enjoyed ur chalet..

2006-11-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

Bounce Lightly......

Know wads so good abt having Lin feng as a buddy?
He's a complete jock nut while i'm a complete Computer nut..so i guess we are good compliments=) lol...today training is like in the morning wan la..kinda hot but at least is was like a new experience for the guys ba.. then it was the doing of the ______ I&R..ahha

Bounce Heavily.....

Dono if this is a good thing or a bad wan actually. The past....i dare nt look at it...

If i could i would, turn back the time..

oh my....

2006-11-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

haha...i like hafta eat sth n rush to parkway aft this..Com juz revived! n i sorta feel inferior aft seeing jingwen's blog, (apparently he only set it up for 2days, n it was v nice!) haha..

Went Swiming today!em, act is juz soaking water ba..at clement's place..weijie n cass were there too to spice up the fun.

i tink i sorta becoming more n more "siao" liao rite? my thoughts...they're like flying everywhere la! cannot cannot...come back...
bounze off to my food=)

Finally....

2006-11-08T12:35:00.000+08:00

After so long..i Finally found a com to do some posting on tis blog..the last time i tried to update using the sch com but there was a power failure..so ya..haha

man..duno y yesterday training i juz cant jump to do a layup..tink i sprained my back
do hope that it wil b ok by nex training..which is tml actually..

my "mummy"'s bday coming soon le...so is Kakwai's!! muz faster go look for some present for them! i love my class 06A201! come to think of it ..all my classes have been all fun n enjoyable..
sports class 2H, 3A/4A, n nw..06A201 !!

2006-11-02T16:10:00.000+08:00

lol..now in the school library wif my "mummy" haha...she printing her Op slides..still waiing for trainging, which only starts at 5pm..=(
mummy says she wants me to say on this blog that she is the best person in this world..ahha
haahhahaa

2006-11-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 days since the depressing event..but i guess i feel better ba..
juz finish our 3rd Op dry-run i think. Today is like so lazy..in fact it sorta has been like this since the completion of promos..
but somehow felt that should start revising on chinese..but don really noe wad to do except doing some reading..
I saw her! i knew i'll see her but it was juz a hi bye thing...At least she helps me forget abt some unpleasen things..She added some spice to the day=)
BounceZ...

The 1st defeat of MJ basketbal team for this batch

2006-11-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

aiz...wad can i say..it was a complete humiliation..they laughed at us..it was really depressing coz even my seniors gave up on us..how can he do this..
With only 5pnts, i gave out many free gifts too-turnovers, mis-passes..I really refuse to admit that we are that lousy, even if we are, it shall not be long..i will remember this game..

2006-10-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

Basketball Outing!

2006-10-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

HAHA..its been some time since i logged onto this thing..

but oh well, went out wif mj bballers today for the 2nd time outside..

Although nt all came, but all the sorangs and bastards were there to add joy to the outing...

hanqi was always the one fooling ard and aiming ppl like willie, naroth and karl..haha

but in the end he oso gana it hahhaa

guijia n mereith brought thei girlfrens...samantha n nina...

all was fun and the NBL match was fun to watch too..aspire that we can play like them..

bouncez..=)

Prom.... wITh ViolEt!

2006-02-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

hahaz..my prom partner.....=)

Castor2- mY oG !

2006-02-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

fun n TiReD SAturday...

2006-02-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

mm..today' s my's bro's bday..ya..so went to celebarate w him together w family lor..in e morning went for 2nd day og OGL camp..so Fun! especially e dance part...dance w girl somemore....rily enjoyed myself.... =)

2006-02-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

new...new...new..new....new..new....... new